Destiny · is · calling · me.

I lovelovelove double chem. LOVE it. Hahaha. Well, I don't love it a lot.. but I love certain situations. Oooh yeah. I brought up what I wanted to, but not to the extend I should have. That's still growth, right? Meh, another time, perhaps..

You know what else I love? Being track team manager. =)

Tomorrow's a heck of a day. School. Track practice. SATs class. Hour of nothing. Wind ensamble. Home. Oyyyy. Ah well. Despite everything, I like tuesdays. I'm quite fond of time alone listening to mugglecast waiting for everyone for wind ensamble arrives. Good times, good times.

When's One Tree Hill coming back...?

The Shaun White Album came today!! So did my iTrip!! The only thing I'm left waiting for is First Descent. But I have Shaun White on DVD!!! YAY!!! It'll be like the Olympics all over again, except this time, I have him on DVD to watch over and over again. And then again. And I am actually infatuated with him this time, as opposed to the Olympics where I didn't realize it. Ah, I'm so foolish. But yay! I'll be watching some of that DVD later. =) Oh will I ever.

"There's only us, there's only this. Forget regret, or life is yours to miss."

I've my first road lesson in about half an hour. Yayyyy.

Yesterday was shopping for prom dresses: round one. I looked in 3 different department stores and Windsor and hardly found anything I really liked. There were a couple here and there in the department stores I liked, but I didn't try any of them on. In Windsor I tried on a few. But... they all run so small. There was one gown I really liked. It was a halter in peach and serious alterations would've needed to be done but I loved it. It wasn't in my size though so I might try next weekend and see if my size is in then. But that's the only one I've really liked so far. I'm usually not picky. But when it comes to this, I don't want to look ordinary. I don't want to blend in. I want to get a color no one else would wear. I don't want a silk dress, but a gown that flows out at the bottom and poofs when I twirl around. I went shopping with my mom, Katie, and Jen, and they were all trying to put me in dark colors I hated or else dresses that looked too old or just.. not me. It was like ring dance shopping all over again. I got really frustrated and didn't want to hear anymore. Ugh. Maybe I'll have better luck next weekend... at the Danbury mall or something.

Eh, shopping yesterday wasn't a complete lost cause. My mom let me get a few shirts in American Eagle and stuff, and I got this other shirt at another store with Snoopy on it and it says "I love nerds." Hehehe. I thought it was funny. Yeah, got other stuff, too... yay for being vague!

My dream the night before last was weird. It gave me the answer to something I should've known...

Eww for essays this week. At least I finally decided on a halfway decent topic for my journalism application. I keep changing my mind. I've been terribly indecisive lately. Ugh, yeah, not good. Hopefully it hasn't been done already, but if it has, then it's only an application piece, right? Yeahh. So that's due friday. I've a killer french essay due tomorrow I haven't even started on, and then history test on wednesday (Oy, with my tuesdays, that's going to suck..) and movie essay on thursday. So maybe I'll sit and watch the movie with Mom today. She loves the movie I chose, anyhow. So I wanna get that done today.

You know how some movies you sometimes hate the first time around, but then love other times? Yeah, that happened to me last night. I'd just gotten back from babysitting and Jen was watching 'The Cutting Edge 2: Going For The Gold' on TV. Now, we've watched this movie about 2 or 3 times before in previous weekends, and I just thought it was a ripoff of the original, with Moira Kelly and DB Sweeney. Christy Carlson Romano as their daughter wasn't really all that great. But, like most movies, it grows on you. It reminds me of the Olympic weeks, which I'm missing (for obvious reasons). Because for their Olympic finals in the movie, they held it in Torino. Sigh.

Oh! So I finally ordered the stuff off of Amazon on Wednesday. I got BOTH Shaun White DVD's and my iTrip for my iPod. Yay! I'm soooo excited. I can't wait til they come, which will hopefully be tomorrow! Oh, my life will soon be complete. =)

He confuses me beyond comprehension. Even beyond that. What do I do..?

Happy St. Patrick's Day... right?

This "holiday" is another that doesn't register with me. The only holidays I will fully celebrate are Easter, Christmas, and Thanksgiving. Nothing else is worth it. Not Halloween, not Valentine's Day, and certainly not St. Patrick's Day. Yeah, I'll put a smile on my face and wear green and pretend I'm doing okay, but in actuality, I can't wait for this day to be done and over with.

Two full years. One year gone. Yeah, I've been reminiscing. I shouldn't. But I am. And I'm hating every minute of it.

"525,600 minutes. 525,000 moments so dear. 525,600 minutes. How do you measure, measure a year? In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights and cups of coffee. In inches, in miles and laughter in stride. In 525,600 minutes, how do you measure a year in the life? How about love? How about love? How about love? Remembering love... seasons of love"

I'm a co-manager for the Guys' Track Team. Yeahh. I'm sooo excited! I'll be after school all next week for like, a half hour with Casey so we can start on our job. Yeah, it'll be awesome.

Why else was Monday a good day...?

College search was a fun process. It's all so.. intimidating. I've a list of a bunch I wanna tour soon, including UConn; Quinnipiac; UDel; George Mason; James Madison; UNCs Ashville and Charlotte; Towson University; etc. I really don't know. I have no idea where I want to go. I've finally decided to major in Nursing. But that's about it. Oh well, there's one thing I can say I've done.

Tuesdays are so tiring.

GAMES to the Alternative School on April 13th. Yay GAMES!

He forgot her birthday. I wonder if he forgot about her, too.

Much essays over the next week or so. I believe I have... 4 due from now through the 28th. Four essays in eleven days. Oh the fun.

My horoscope is scarily accurate. It seems everytime I look at it, it happens or else it has happened already. It's really weird. It's not in my head either. Okay, so maybe it is partly. But this stuff happens. Down to little misunderstandings or my frame of thought. I now know what to expect, though.

"Corey and Topanga sitting in a tree, A-B-C-D-E-F-G." I thought that was funny.

CAPTS are over. And it makes me sad. No more sleeping in or leaving early. No more test-and-homework-free classes. No more shortened periods. Sigh.

"I less than three you". Lol Paigers.

Yay weekend! St. Patricks plans? Still in the works. Yay work!

There's so much to do in so little time. And I'm not just talking about school. I've lost count of how many days we've got.

My dreams have ruined me. I had another odd one the other night that's really confused me and I really don't want to think too much into it because it's when I do that bad things tend to happen. But no worries, it wasn't about anyone who's ever read this. Nono, it was about someone else...

Spread the love, Irish style! =)

My cousin finally had her baby!

Christopher Jackson Hermann
"Jack"
March 11, 2006 at 6:37pm
8 lbs. 1 oz.
Brown hair, blue eyes
To Korey and Christopher Hermann

I'm sooo happy for her! He was due for the 20th, but her first child, Lucy, was born about a month early, so she was expecting him to be early as well. Everytime I'd talk to her she'd be like "Sorry Cheeb, no baby yet." And this was on... last sunday? Yeah, she was getting antsy. Yay excitement!

I hope to go down for the baptism, but just the baptism. I wouldn't tell him I was going, nor would I go looking for him across the state. As great as it could be, I'm too afraid: afraid of what might be, afraid of losing sight of things, afraid of losing myself, afraid of losing my life, afraid of falling victim and becoming just another statistic. I'm afraid of so much. And it's keeping me from fulfilling another goal I have. That's why I'm scared.

But I'll push that behind me. I really want to go to his baptism! Yay for new (half) cousins!

Last night was pretty good. I was babysitting from 730-1215. But it was great. Jacqueline went to bed great, with the exception of getting up once, but after that she was fine. She didn't cry at all really, which was such a relief to me. Her mom had put the baby to bed before leaving, so that made my night easier. After that, I called Zachary, as he knows because erm.. yeah and then I was on the phone with Korey for 40 minutes. And then another 20 later on that night. Then I thought the mom was home so I hung up with her and I watched TV. Will on Idol-- yeahh!! So, I found PoA on tv and read some of A Million Little Pieces. Then, around 1145, I hear the baby (Lauren) crying upstairs so I went upstairs and I started rocking her back to sleep. It was amazing. I loved it! It made me happy.
First Descent isn't available in stores, so I have to order it offline. Bah.

We all visited Laur and Rich's new house in Fairfield today. It's so cute! It's perfect for them, and Laur's already gone to work on decorating it so it looks exactly perfectly right. Poor Rich is stressed..

Adam Brody is in freaking everythinggg. Well, not really, but it seems to be so.

Happy 17th Birthday Ciaran!!!!

To do:
-Finish Chapter 14
-Finish the one-shot from a few weeks ago (alternate ending?)
-Start fic about meeting the guys (Hehehe)
-Make Amazon purchase
-Practive Tir Na Nog
-Finish A Million Little Pieces
-Print out pictures for book
-Avoid getting sick(er)

Days Til--
GOF DVD: 3!!!!!!!!
AP Hitory Exam: 62
Fall Out Boy: 62
Prom: 69
NC Posibility: 70
SATs: 91

"I'm alive... Hope to talk to you in real time soon... " I miss you more than I can know. <\3

Over and out.

Current Mood: Congested
Current Music: "Halo" -Haley James Scott (AKA Bethany Joy Lenz/Galeoti)

Last night was pretty good. I was babysitting from 730-1215. But it was great. Jacqueline went to bed great, with the exception of getting up once, but after that she was fine. She didn't cry at all really, which was such a relief to me. Her mom had put the baby to bed before leaving, so that made my night easier. After that, I called Zachary, as he knows because erm.. yeah and then I was on the phone with Korey for 40 minutes. And then another 20 later on that night. Then I thought the mom was home so I hung up with her and I watched TV. Will on Idol-- yeahh!! So, I found PoA on tv and read some of A Million Little Pieces. Then, around 1145, I hear the baby (Lauren) crying upstairs so I went upstairs and I started rocking her back to sleep. It was amazing. I loved it! It made me happy.

First Descent isn't available in stores, so I have to order it offline. Bah.

We all visited Laur and Rich's new house in Fairfield today. It's so cute! It's perfect for them, and Laur's already gone to work on decorating it so it looks exactly perfectly right. Poor Rich is stressed..

Adam Brody is in freaking everythinggg. Well, not really, but it seems to be so.

Happy 17th Birthday Ciaran!!!!

To do:
-Finish Chapter 14
-Finish the one-shot from a few weeks ago (alternate ending?)
-Start fic about meeting the guys (Hehehe)
-Make Amazon purchase
-Practive Tir Na Nog
-Finish A Million Little Pieces
-Print out pictures for book
-Avoid getting sick(er)

Days Til--
GOF DVD: 3!!!!!!!!
AP Hitory Exam: 62
Fall Out Boy: 62
Prom: 69
NC Posibility: 70
SATs: 91

"I'm alive... Hope to talk to you in real time soon... " I miss you more than I can know. <\3

Over and out.

I worked a total of 8 and a half hours in total. It would have been near 12, but Jacqueline was screaming as her parents were leaving, so they decided to take her with them.

Laur got her wedding dress yesterday morning!! It was so exciting. It was her, Mom, Aunt LuLu, Jen, and Me at this little bridal boutique in Clinton. It was such a cute little shop and the people were so enthusiastic and friendly. And of course, Laur looked absolutely radiant in every single dress she tried on. She wound up choosing the first one she tried on, the one she saw in a magazine. It was like it was made for her or something. It was perfect. I got pictures and everything. It felt so real, seeing my big sister on a stool with a wedding dress and veil on. I got a little teary, for many reasons. But it's alright. Jen and I tried on veils, imitating Phoebe in that Friends episode. "Am I crazy or does this totally go?" Hehehe. Yeah, it's crazy.

I have found my Olympic Obsession for Torino '06. Lol. First, I'll say that my Olympic Obsessions (Yes, there were two) for Athens '04 were Paul Hamm and Michael Phelps. Wow.. is all I can say. Hehe. So yeah, for Torino '06, as expected, I'm sure, is... Shaun White! Hehehe. Yeah, it was confirmed the other night when I was talking with Amie after babysitting and she agreed with me. And then I spent like, an hour googling him and looking at videos from the NBC site. Yeah, as Amie said, I got it bad. But I can't help it!
Amie: You're caught red-handed. with the redhead.

Hehehe. Yeah, The Flying Tomato is so hot. Hehe I've looked at videos and stuff, and listened to a lot of interviews. He might be back for Bejing '08 with skateboarding because he's gone pro in that too, and makes transitions easily. And I really hope he'll return for Vancouver '10. *crosses fingers* He's supposed to be doing some big snowboarding competition in Vermont soon. I hope to persuade the parents to take us up that day. It'd be AWESOME! But he's a legend! He starred in First Descent, a snowboarding documentary, which I fully intend to purchase on my next run to Circuit City. Yeah, I'm excited. He's also got an autobiography The Shaun White Album. Again, something I fully intend to purchase. Hehehe. =)
Ben Schoen: It's these teenage girls. Their hormones are raging.

Haha. I saw Brian yesterday. The last time he was there was when I was babysitting. Hmm..

I drove yesterday! It was very exciting. It was my mom, Jen, Laur, and I in the Masuk parking lot on the way home from Big Y. When I first put my foot on the gas, I scared Laur and Jen. Those two are so funny. They had their drinks and snacks in the back and kept distracting me. But I managed to drive safely and not hit anything. Then, I got to pull out onto 111 and drive home from there and pull into my spot at the top of the driveway. It was overall successful, except for the fact that I'm too short and can't see the front of my car very well... but yay for driving!

CAPT in two weeks = YAY! School at 11 or later, sometimes 1030. I can't wait. I just need to acquire a ride.

Danni: sparknotes is my best friend.
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Pam: I'm going to go do work, too. You inspire me.
Hahahahaha I love my cousins.

The Olympics have ended with their closing ceremonies. *sigh*

Oh man. So I'm on mugglenet the other night, right? And I'm scrolling down through the news I missed while I was away, and I see Ciaran's review of Driving Lessons. Unfortunately, it's only being released in the UK, which really sucks, and I'll probably have to order it off amazon once it comes out on DVD (I'm so not gonna let a Rupert movie slip through my fingers). So in part of the review, he's giving a play-by-play of the movie, and I guess Rupert's character meets this girl and they kiss and stuff. Ommmgggggggg. I can imagine me in that theater... It'll be like when I see December Boys, except I'll be much worse in Driving Lessons. Hehehehe.

I slept til 1045 today. Meh... watched The One With Monica and Chandler's Wedding and The One After 'I Do' last night. *sigh* I love those episodes...

Over and out.